Third Installment
SPARE SOME TIME AND FIND OUT, HOW A WILD BEAST, WHO WAS A PLAYBOY & A BISEXUAL, A DRUG / ALCOHOL FREAK & A ALCOHOL DEALER, A PARTY ANIMAL & AN ANGRY GANGSTER, GOT HIS LIFE TRANSFORMED WITH THE “POWER OF LOVE”
Genesis 18:20-33
20 Then the Lord said, “The outcry against Sodom and Gomorrah is so great and their sin so grievous 21 that I will go down and see if what they have done is as bad as the outcry that has reached me. If not, I will know.”
22 The men turned away and went toward Sodom, but Abraham remained standing before the Lord.[b] 23 Then Abraham approached him and said: “Will you sweep away the righteous with the wicked? 24 What if there are fifty righteous people in the city? Will you really sweep it away and not spare[c] the place for the sake of the fifty righteous people in it? 25 Far be it from you to do such a thing—to kill the righteous with the wicked, treating the righteous and the wicked alike. Far be it from you! Will not the Judge of all the earth do right?”
26 The Lord said, “If I find fifty righteous people in the city of Sodom, I will spare the whole place for their sake.”
27 Then Abraham spoke up again: “Now that I have been so bold as to speak to the Lord, though I am nothing but dust and ashes, 28 what if the number of the righteous is five less than fifty? Will you destroy the whole city for lack of five people?”
“If I find forty-five there,” he said, “I will not destroy it.”
29 Once again he spoke to him, “What if only forty are found there?”
He said, “For the sake of forty, I will not do it.”
30 Then he said, “May the Lord not be angry, but let me speak. What if only thirty can be found there?”
He answered, “I will not do it if I find thirty there.”
31 Abraham said, “Now that I have been so bold as to speak to the Lord, what if only twenty can be found there?”
He said, “For the sake of twenty, I will not destroy it.”
32 Then he said, “May the Lord not be angry, but let me speak just once more. What if only ten can be found there?”
He answered, “For the sake of ten, I will not destroy it.”
33 When the Lord had finished speaking with Abraham, he left, and Abraham returned home.
Since childhood, I was a sportsman and I was really good at it. When I started smoking at a very young age, I was also getting worried about my health & sports. I was blessed enough to quit the smoking and now the Cigar thing was only occasionally, later on a time came when the Cigar was totally off from my life but then the weed and alcohol came in, occasionally.
I was experiencing all kinds of addictions, now the new addiction that I was encountered with was pornography. As my daily visits to the gaming shop were giving me sexual knowledge at a very young age, now through my older friends I also got to know about internet cafes. For me getting out of a misery (addiction) was going into another misery (addiction). The way I got out of smoking but entered into weed and alcohol; it was the same, getting out of gaming shop and entering into an internet café shop. Initially, I started going to internet café to enhance my gaming experience but I ended up with an addiction of pornography. I was a very young at that time, I must be 12 years old, the most sad part is that the internet café guy/owner never stopped me entering or never checked me that what am I doing. I remember once, taking a very dear friend of mine to the internet café and making him watch an inappropriate movie. His eyes were wide open, I remember all and I regret with all my heart that I brought this innocent soul to the dark side, the dark way that will end up to death. God want us to be Holy like Him and walk in purity on the way of light, so that He may give us the internal life.
I became kind of a smuggler for pornography, I was the one who was using a USB to get stuff from one friend and share what I have to the other friends. My addiction came to a stage when I would watch whole night till morning and sometime afternoon. I was not in control of myself, I was sleeping with everyone, and I was a bisexual. The people, whom I have slept with, are not in my count. I remember when I was around 13 years old; once my mother was doing laundry. She called me and made me sit with her, she showed me something and she cried, she said this is what I have found in your jeans pent. I was so embarrassed and I was also scared of my father that I ran from the house but after couple of hours my father found me at a friend’s place. What my mother found in my jeans was a condom. I was a big time loser, no studies, no job, nothing. The only thing I was serious about was the gym and because of gym, having this ripped body, I was into so much pride and high in ego. To be continued . . . . . . . . . .
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